I Want My Own Vampire

 

When I was reading The Twilight Saga, I admired Stephenie Mayer but not because I thought she was an awesome writer and her story was brilliant. I think her writing is mediocre and many people could write Twilight and make a better story out of it, but she won my heart because of Edward Cullen. The search for the "perfect" man is too elusive that women went gaga over the 17-year old boy. When I was reading through the series, I was Team Edward, and I still am, because I wanted my own Edward and worry not about cars crashing me to oblivion. I can ride on his back and we will run through the woods just so I could watch him sparkle under the sun. I would wake up and see him beside me --- making sure I was safe --- from bad dreams and other vampires.

I fell in love with Twilight because of Edward Cullen and for long, I fantasized about him. In fact, when the first movie came out, I would even force Bon to reenact that famous scene in the woods with me.

Bella: How old are you?

Edward: 17

Bella: How long have you been 17?

Edward: a while...

During my house arrest, I began reading The Southern Vampire Series, most popularly known as True Blood; and because of this I wanted to be Sookie Stackhouse. It doesn't really matter which vampire I get; I can have Bill Compton or Eric Northman. I want a man who will always be there to rescue me, otherwise he will send "Bubba" to be my bodyguard. I want vampires who will fight over me --- and I will not care, and run off with a Were instead. Of course, I will be in danger every time, and I have put into consideration the biting involved. But I realized that if my vampire really can't control the urge to chew me off, I will prepare his tooth and install porcelain crowns.

 

I have yet to begin to read Vampire Diaries but I have recently finished the first season --- and I love it! I know everyone wants Damon Salvatore, so that's good enough for me because that means I can have Stefan Salvatore for myself. I want to be Elena Gilbert and have a vampire who's always just one call away. He may have a perverted brother who likes me too, and his ex-girlfriend will look exactly like me (but in old fashioned clothes), but it's okay --- I'd have Stefan Salvatore anytime --- even just for his body (Hahaha!)

Bottom line: I want my own vampire

they're hot and sexy --- and who doesn't want that?

they're strong --- and can protect me from harm!

they're romantic ---  and will make you feel like a queen

they're mysterious  --- and therefore, never boring

they're rich --- and can take me shopping!!!

waiting for my vampire,

I Got Caught --- Again

So I got stopped by the police last Tuesday. Second day of driving, after a month of being on house arrest, and I already had my encounter with the police. Of course, I got away, because I am awesome like that (sorry), but I still feel bad for having been caught because you have no idea how careful I am.

THE SITUATION:

I cannot drive my car yet, since it's manual transmission, so I drive sister's car instead. It's coded during Tuesdays, so I left a little later for work. Got to work fine. Worked on my patients. Got tired and could not wait for 6pm to arrive --- so I could leave and go home to be able to rest properly for the day. I left the clinic at 6pm. It went well. I was driving really slowly --- average of 30kph (no exaggeration --- because despite the permission to drive, I am not 100% well yet), and then a Pasig policeman orders me to stop.

THE REASON:

Apparently "number coding" is until 7pm. (What the---?)

THE TRUTH:

I know this will really sound so stupid, since I have been driving for years. But honestly, I have been spared so long from the "number coding" (having been a military brat) so I still confuse a lot of the rules. When I was in school, I had this exemption letter that I always kept in my car, signed by the PNP CHIEF. I do not risk it though (I, either do not bring my car or leave really late), because I honestly don't like running into the police and having a dialogue with them. However, I was really exhausted and could not wait to see my bed. I left the clinic as soon as the clock struck 6pm because I honestly thought that number coding all over the metro ended at 6pm --- I swear. I told the policeman that; and he believed me.

No, I do not like getting into trouble with the police. And yes, I have been using all kinds of techniques to get myself out of a ticket. I have tried crying, threatening, non-stop chattering, begging --- and it has worked for me. I am not proud of it, but I am just really not ready to have an official traffic offense yet; and I hope I never will. I fear the PNP and the MMDA, actually, and all my guy friends laugh at me because they said that if they were in my position (especially back in college when my dad was still active) they would break all kinds of laws and not give a damn. You see, that is not how things happen with me. I am very very careful. I hate breaking laws. Violations just seem to come to me in a surprise.

Anyway, I do not want to get caught anymore (because I am honestly scared now, since the "new president" is so strict about it), so I decided to read the rules. I think all traffic rules should be compiled in a booklet and given to all the drivers who apply for and renew their licenses --- but that is just what I think.

Oh, happy driving everyone...

And no, this was not taken last Tuesday when i got caught... don't worry!!! The car wasn't moving either... because I was parked on the street waiting for Bon when I took this picture. I took it on our way to "Tagaytay" on my birthday --- Obviously, I got bored!!!

What An Excuse!!!

Like men don’t already have enough excuses? Oh c’mon!

It’s quite brilliant, yeah, but they’ve forgotten one thing: WOMEN’S INTUITION. I mean, our instincts are far greater than any science experiment. It is innate. It is animalistic. We feel it in our hearts and it creeps into our heads --- relentlessly pressuring us to dig deeper and deeper. Haha!

But really, I’m not the type who stops my boyfriend from going out with his friends. I mean, I have my friends too (girls and boys) and I would not want him to be telling me that I’m not allowed to go out???

We both have our own friends and our friends are quite possessive. Haha! Well, when you hardly see each other, it’s not really nice to have your boyfriend or girlfriend tagged along with you because that means you cannot talk about them. Haha! Therefore, it is very seldom that boyfriends are allowed to come to night outs.

There is nothing wrong with going out with friends and having fun with them without your boyfriend or girlfriend. Bon and I have our “own time together” and we also have our night outs with our friends and family, but it is nice to have individual activities away from each other, too. Of course I do not go out as much now, compared to when I was younger; but I was young once (younger, I mean), and when it was my time I gave myself a chance to enjoy --- and Bon did too.

Does Bon have to lie to me to go out? No! He goes out with his “bike” friends every Thursday and they ride around town and hit several bars all night. As long as he comes to work on Friday and can still face patients, I do not mind.

House Arrest Ends Today

After today, I will be coming back to work. I have been away from work for more than month and I cannot wait to go back. Before my operation, I was a very busy person. Dentists are not supposed to be busy people but I make myself busy because that is how I am. I have three jobs. I am a dentist from 10am-6pm, I go to the gym for an hour and I tutor from 8-10pm. Apart from that, I am a writer all day long. I could actually choose to be less busy, but I really don't know how.

My month of rest was hard for me to take but I wouldn't deny enjoying it. I will miss it --- oh, I really will, but I think I have rested enough and I'm ready to go back. I have watched enough television, read enough books, written blog post after blog post --- I am now ready to go back to my real life.

back to cleaning teeth and removing plaque

back to pulling teeth out and seeing blood

back to whitening teeth and making them pretty

back to straightening crooked and crowded teeth

back to searching for stubborn canals

back to filling cavities and taking the pain away

back to being a dentist

I loved house arrest so much. I have been too busy, working my ass off, that I kind of forgotten giving time for myself. One month is enough, right?

thank you for keeping me company,

SONG IN MY HEAD: Gravity

I first heard this song while watching "So You Think You Can Dance" and I immediately fell in love with it. Without really listening to lyrics, I fell in love with the song because of the melody and the beautiful choreography. The piece was entitled: "Addiction", with Kupuno as the drug and Kayla, the victim drawn to it. It was dark, it was pure, it was beautiful and I loved the song and the dance completely.

Last night, while watching "Vampire Diaries", I heard the song again and I immediately remembered how much I loved it, and I would like to share it with you. It does not really have a lovely meaning. As a matter of fact, after listening to the song, in full, I realized that it is very sad. Like the dance, it talks about some kind of addiction. Gravity is an invisible force that keeps us aground; but in this song Sara Bareilles talks about gravity as some kind of force that keeps on bringing her back to this person. "Something brings me back to you, it never takes too long".

Loving can be sort of addictive. I have only loved a few times but this song speaks to me in so many ways... the longing for freedom that cannot be explained. I guess, people who love too much can really be likened to someone who is addicted to a drug. Stephenie Meyer associated Edward's craving for Bella as an addict craving for Morphine: you wish to break free from it, but you don't know how.

Oh well, there are many evils in this world, and sometimes even the sweetest things can turn really bad. Here's the full video of the song and the lyrics, I hope you like it:

GRAVITY

by Sarah Bereilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.

I never wanted anything so much
than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be.

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.

When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be.

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything
I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.

The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

I don't know with you but I love Sara Bareilles,

What Were They Thinking When They Made Percy Jackson Into A Film?

First of all, I enjoyed Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief when I saw it last summer and it made me want to read the book. I watched it because everyone said it's supposed to replace Harry Potter --- and I wanted to see if they were right about that declaration. It was "just" okay. I enjoyed the movie because back in high school, I was quite obsessed with Greek Mythology, and watching the movie reminded me of the different gods and goddesses of Olympus. Uma Thurman, as Medusa, didn't look as scary though --- but, I guess it was alright. 

However, having finished reading the entire series just a few weeks ago, I would say that it was one of the worst adaptations, ever. True, film adaptations have always been less superior to the books but I did not even realize the film was bad until I read the book. It's not about cutting parts because they do that in every film derived from novels. The problem with Percy Jackson is that I feel that they sort of twisted the story and made it really --- LAME (yeah, that's the word). 

Those who read the book would probably understand what I'm talking about because I'm having trouble finding the words to explain it. I have read many books in my life, books that have been made into movies and  this one was bad. 

• In the film, they immediately announced Percy as "The Son of Poseidon". I feel the "claiming" is important, not just for Tyson's arrival, but also for the finale of the series.
• The quest did not include much of the awesome parts as well, like the bus ride with the furies, the meeting with Ares and I also did not like how they did the scene with Medusa.
• They did show how well Percy was able to control water, but they did not signify how great his power was. His wounds can be healed by simply touching water and he can choose to appear dry even when submerged in the sea.
• They did not introduce the Oracle which is very important for the series. 
• There was no mention of the "Prophecy" and no hint about the oath made by the big 3 (Hades, Poseidon and Zeus) to never have children with humans again.
• They did not even include the part where Grover, while wearing Luke's "flying sneakers" almost got led into Tartarus, where Kronos, the Titan God is.
• They did not show the dreams. Dreaming is a big thing about demigods and they did not show this in the movie.

There is probably more, but I could not think of them now --- because I am really frustrated. I also checked out IMDB to see if there are any films in-production and there aren't any. The series could have been a good one, but they did a bad job with it. I know I am no authority in films and literature, but I am a big fan of both --- so that gives me a right to be upset, am I correct?

And speaking of films and adaptations, I was trying to think about which book had the best translation to film and  I arrived at this: The Beach by Alex Garland. I have not read a lot of books that turned into movies, but of the ones I have, I believe that this is the best and not just because it has Leonardo diCaprio in it.

How about you, did you enjoy Percy Jackson?

American TV Love

With my operation and all, I really have no choice but to embrace "house arrest" and make the most of my time doing whatever comes to mind and watching American television shows. I have already finished some, but I still have a couple lined up. Right now I have been watching my sisters' downloaded copies using the PS3, but I really need to visit my metrowalk dvd lady to get copies of the other shows.

I have been watching whatever. You have to believe me with this because I even watch agua bendita and recently I have come to like magkaribal and I really enjoy both shows. When I am not glued on to these "soap operas", however, I busy myself watching my favorite American TV series:

Even though half of the time I do not understand what they are talking about, I love Leonard, Sheldon, Raj and Howard. I also adore Penny and I love how she's found a very comfortable way to fit into their small intellectual orgy. I would love for episodes to be longer than usual though, because I remember being shocked during “The Big Bang Theory” season 2 when Bon and I was able to finish one whole season in one day.

I’m not sure how many people know of “Bones”, but I love watching this because even though its supposed to be a suspense-filled show, you get to enjoy the love stories in between. It's called “Bones"  because Temperence Brenan (Zooey Deschanel's sister) is an “uber” smart socio-anthropologist and she specializes in bone identification. Her lab is teamed-up with the FBI and she has this cute love-hate relationship with macho Seeley Booth (the vampire from Buffy who had his own series called Angel).

And then, there’s “Chuck" because everyone loves Chuck. I mean, who wouldn't love a hot CIA agent who is sweet and dorky at the same time? I love Chuck because --- well, do I really have to explain why I adore Chuck Bartowski???  I fell in love with the series from the first episode of Season 1 and I cannot wait for the 4th season to start!

Okay, I agree, "Dexter" is a weird show to watch because it’s quite gruesome and troubling. However, if you watch it in moderation it is truly awesome. It is about this guy whose ugly past led to his hunger for murder; but since his adoptive father anticipated this, he has been taught to murder serial killers instead, and covers his activities by working as a “blood-spatter analyst” for the Miami Police Department. Be warned, though, because it could be quite heavy. So when Bon and I watch this, we alternate it with “Gossip Girl” or some other show.

 

"Dollhouse" has such a weird plot but it's what makes it truly interesting. Unfortunately, not everyone agrees and so the show has been cancelled after only 2 Seasons. It is basically about this organization that hires individuals to work as “dolls”. As one, their own memories will be wiped-out and their minds will be a blank slate, ready to be inputted with new memories fabricated to however the clients requests for it to be. You can order a perfect girlfriend or boyfriend; a perfect assassin or soldier. As long as you can afford it, you can have your doll. Cool huh? Sadly, not so many people watched it so it got cancelled.

Science freaks and those who believe in the paranormal, would enjoy “Fringe”. My good friend, Quin, introduced me to this show and she described it to me this way: “Crix, it’s like Heroes, CSI, Lost and some other show put together.” Hmmmm… it kind of is.

Then, there’s “Glee” and because of this show everyone has now been converted into GLEEKS. I love it because I have always loved musicals and with “Glee” you get to watch a musical every week --- and adore Finn and Puck (as an added bonus). I am quite scared for Charice’s arrival in the show, but I am staying positive. (NB. I am not a Charice hater, I am just fearing the “unknown”).

Sororities and Fraternities --- this is the focus of my other favorite show, “Greek”. It is about college life, minus the studying so it’s all about love triangles, cheating, inebriation, deceit, rivalry --- and of course, friendship, love, family and ambition. It is a sneak peek into the lives of the American Greek System; told in a light and colorful way. 

Finally, there’s “30 Rock”. If you wish to just really laugh out loud, all you need to do is to pop in the 30 Rock DVD and let Tina Fey, Alec Baldwin, Tracy Morgan and the rest of cast show you a good time. I especially adore Kenneth Parcel because he's really funny --- but you have to watch it to understand what I mean.

How about you, what do you watch?

ps. I actually watch more than but I included my top picks only.

Oops! I Offended A Celebrity

I have always been a "kapamilya" and while I don't really get to watch so much local tv (except now that I'm on house arrest), my favorite day is sunday because i get to watch ASAP. This is the Filipino in me. I love variety shows and i enjoy watching celebrities perform on television --- and I think that ASAP is really fun to watch. So during sundays, at around 12-ish, my sisters and I try to watch the whole thing and then to humor ourselves, we go to GMA to laugh at whatever they're doing at SOP/PARTY PILIPINAS.

I'm sorry... but I really don't understand why they can't do anything right there. I can go on and list all the people and things that I hate about that channel but that is not really my point here. anyway this sunday, during a commercial, i found myself at GMA where jolina magdangal was celebrating her 20 years in "showbiz" by singing a medley of Beatles songs.

I didn't stay on the channel to watch the entire performance because she kinda butchered "blackbird" for me. I decided to tweet about it and immediately transferred back to ASAP: 

  (Jolina is ruining "Blackbird"... go ahead!)

Anyway, later that afternoon i checked twitter and saw that i received a tweet from jolina, herself. i thought it was a fan, at first, but when i visited the page, i realized that it was official: 

  

(Go ahead, give me your version of "Blackbird"... Thanks for watching anyway!)

Apparently, a lot of people dissed her performance and she felt really bad about it. I read a couple of replies she wrote on her twitter page and while it's really funny how "pissed" it made her, I kinda felt bad. Well, I guess it's really difficult to be a celebrity and to have people watching your every move. But then again, isn't it part of their work --- to face criticism? 

Anyway, I promise not to diss people (too) much on twitter anymore and maybe next Sunday I will stay on ASAP for the whole 3 hours. And yeah before I go, let me leave you with my favorite version of this song --- the reason why I found Jolina's version "less superior".    

Sorry,

p.s. I am not a singer, so I can't belt out a better version of "Blackbird". That's why I stick to being a dentist... because I am not a singer!

10 Reasons Why I Should Get Better Now

As of today, I have been on house arrest for 18 days and although it is fun to wake up late and not care... it is not fun to live like this:

1. i can't stop eating. All I do is eat and eat and eat. in real life, I don't eat breakfast and I don't eat rice (unless I really want to), but now I eat three meals and a lot in between. Mom and dad won't stop feeding me and I feel that if I go on like this, my stomach will burst open and my internal organs will come out of my still healing wound. 

2. i miss being a dentist. I used to be a dentist, you know, and I used to be a real workaholic. Now, I am manning the clinic through phone and I miss looking at people's teeth. Bon is getting all the action and I'm so jealous.

3. i miss ella. Ella is my korean student and although we really don't do much, it is really fun chatting with her. I wonder how well she's doing right now? I hope she doesn't have papers she needs help with because I feel bad not being there for her, really. 

4. i miss going to the gym. I was told that I need to wait 3 months (or so) before I could start working out again, and that makes me really sad because I enjoy going to golds gym. I used to walk to their timog avenue branch near my clinic and I run almost every day, and join the kickboxing class on mondays and then street dance class on wednesdays. When I come back, everyone will be on level 1 and I'd still be on multi-level mode. darn! 

5. i miss driving. Even if it's traffic and Noynoy has made traffic even more unbearable (what with all the discipline he's forcing on all filipinos --- which is a good thing, really) i heard; i cannot wait to drive my manual transmission Ford Lynx to and from work... through heavy traffic and rain. 

6. i want to go shopping. I am not a shopaholic but I do love to shop. I still have not visited Forever 21 and I want to be able to see it, at least (pretty plese?) Also, I wanna get me some new clothes for work because I feel like have not really shopped in ages. 

7. i hate being part of the retired club. The retired club, is the club that has my mom and my dad as members --- and everyone who stays at home for too long, becomes an automatic member. The retired club loves to watch television. They love to eat. They love to talk about life. They love to make fun of the government --- and have I mentioned the part about eating? Well, being part of the retired club is fun for a while but after some time it gets really boring! 

8. i want to go out and get drunk. Well, I haven't been drunk in a long time and that's really the point. I just feel that after being a patient... I want to feel like I am not one anymore. Sick people don't go out to party and get themselves inebriated --- that's what I want. 

9. i wanna try the zipline here in manila. I have always wanted to try the zipline in subic but I always have no time. Then recently I found out that there's a zipline here in manila now at kalye industriya, and I want to check it out.   

10. i wanna go on a road trip somewhere to celebrate. I think I have been too wrapped up with what has happened and I just want to forget it and celebrate. I want to go far and celebrate. I want to have fun and enjoy. I have no idea what to do... but I want to do something.  

photo from here