Every Thursday and Friday, I leave my car in the clinic and Bon brings me to EDSA to take the MRT or the bus to the condo in Ortigas. I do this to save gas --- and it really works --- because my full tank lasts me more than two weeks, from Pasig to Timog. It's not hard. Going home is fine because I only take one ride (with Bon's help), but going to work in the morning is tough because I need to take two rides --- a bus ride and a jeep ride (thankfully, the jeep stops in front of the clinic). I dread the commute, but it's okay. I have been doing it for a year now (I think) and it isn't so bad --- also, I only do it for two days. Apart from having to endure the heat (when walking) it is not so bad, at all. However, the most dreadful thing happened to me last week.
I usually sit in the first rows, so that I am nearest to the driver. Upon entering, I judged that the right side (with the couple) would be crowded, so I took the left side and sat with the old man (probably in his fifties). They were showing Skyline on the television so I was watching --- I watch the shows while I eat candy because I tend to get a little dizzy when I'm in the bus.
Anyway, when I took my seat, I noticed the man had chosen to occupy 75% of the two-seater space. He had his legs open too wide and I felt his leg touching mine. I decided then to give him 80% of the space, but I noticed that he'd decided to occupy the 5%-gap that I had set as free space and this time I felt him moving his leg up and down. I did not know what to do. Things like this do not happen to me, so I wasn't sure how to handle it.
- I thought of shouting: "What are you doing? You perve!" But I was not sure if he was really perving on me or not.
- I thought of transferring to another seat.
- I thought of telling him off to the driver or the conductor.
I had a lot of thoughts in my mind as I gave him 85% of the seat, but I did not do it because I could not think. I have never been in this kind of situation before and I did not know what to do. After a while, I was already at my stop and I felt relieved. Relief did not come so long, though, because when I exited the bus --- he followed, too. I decided, then, to hurry to ride the jeep and was surprised that he took the same one, too. When I sat down, I barricaded myself with my bags and made sure that he could not come near me anymore.
For my foreign readers let me explain to you how JEEP rides work. When you pay, you have to pass your coins from person to person, until it reaches the driver --- and the driver gives his change back from person to person until it reaches you. Anyway, I was determined to ignore this man, so I passed my payment to the person across from me and it reached the driver. Unfortunately, though, I still had some change, so the driver gave it back and MISTER PERVE got it. When he extended his hand, I hesitated a bit and then prepared to receive the coins. I hoped that he would drop my change in my hand but he proceeded to leave me a lingering touch that immediately sent SHIVERS to my bone --- as in I shook, and my body trembled in front of everyone, I wanted to drop the coins.
When I got to my destination, I hurried to my clinic (Don't worry, I did not ask to be dropped off in front --- I decided to go down two buildings ahead). I entered the clinic and I sat at the reception area and called Monique: "Minanyak ata ako!" ("I think I've been violated!"). I felt so stupid. I felt so weak. I felt so stupid. I felt so stupid. I don't know why I did not do anything. It is not like me to just sit there and do nothing --- but I did not know what to do. All the ideas came, while I was trying to recall what had happened --- but none of those ideas came when MISTER PERVE was beside me.
I'm so sorry I'm so stupid. I really feel so bad. Bon said I should not wear skirts when I commute. It wasn't too short, but he may be right. I have been commuting for a year (I think) and I have been riding buses and jeeps in skirts shorter than what I was wearing that day. I hadn't even brushed my hair, if I recall right. I had no make-up. I did not look inviting at all, and the man did not look PERVY.
Oh gosh! I still feel so stupid. I actually did not want to write about this because I feel that it's my fault anyway. I'm sorry. I don't know why I let that happen to me... I promise to not even question situations like that anymore --- if it happens again (but I pray that it won't anymore). If that happens again, I will not hesitate, I will just shout: "YUCK! YOU PERVERT!" --- or something like that. I promise!